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Remember here, how I talked about music and how much it meant to me and how a single song can mean so much and bring you back to moments in life? 

This song popped up on my phone one day listening in the car. 
While I wasn't cheated on, that I know of, I was still asked to forgive my ex-husband soon after I left and I remember just feeling dazed and couldn't believe he was asking such a question so soon. 
It's all a blur to me these days. 
So many emotions at once and so much happened. 
I have no idea how I came out of those months alive, but I did and I'm better for it. 

Here are the lyrics. They are powerful and intense. 
I feel so much every time I listen to this song. I love it!!
It can be interpreted a few different ways, but it can still relate to so many situations!

When you think about forgiving someone, it's not condoning the behavior or saying it's OK that it happened, but it's giving peace to yourself to let that anger and resentment go. 
Letting it be a lesson to move forward with instead of staying in the past of something you can't change and never really growing. 

Rebecca Lynn Howard - Forgive

I always said that'd be it
That I wouldn't stick around if it ever came to this
Here I am, so confused
How am I supposed to leave when I can't even move?
In the time it would have took to say
"Honey I'm home, how was your day?"
You dropped the bomb right where we live
And just expect me to forgive

Well that's a mighty big word for such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
'Cause I don't even know now who I am
It's too soon for me to say forgive

I should ask but I won't
Was it love or just her touch?
'Cause I don't think I wanna know
So get you some things and get out
Don't call me for a day or two so I can sort this out
Well you might as well have ripped the life
Right out of me, right here tonight
And through the fallin' tears you said
"Can you ever just forgive?"

Well that's a mighty big word for such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
'Cause I don't even know now who I am
It's too soon for me to say, forgive
You know what they say
Forgive and forget
Relive and regret

Well that's a mighty big word for such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
'Cause I don't even know now who I am
It's too soon for me to say forgive
Oh, it's too soon for me to say forgive


Crystal said…
I like this song a lot... even though it is an ugly struggle to forgive sometimes. You are a strong woman and forgiving your ex made you better because it set you free. Love you!!

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